Wednesday, July 09, 2008
{ 5:30 AM }
many people around me have told me that their life suck. i too think that my life suck. well..is this true for people who are growing up? is teenage life like that at all? or is it us only? this few days, many things have happened. and all these things just happened so fast i didnt know how to react to them all. maybe it'll help me grow? i dont know. i miss the past..i hate my life now..i dont know how to face it):
to you: you are so rude. being straightforward is something good, but being blunt is not. many times you've said things that are so blunt it hurts. i will keep all these and not tell you how i feel because i'm not a person who like to say out what's on my mind. but you never stopped to notice. you just went about doing what you like. i was there when you needed someone. when i needed someone? who was there for me? definitely not you. you dont even know why i treated you like that! how funny. let me give you a clue then. what did you do yesterday? have you left someone out? and not cared about her existence? i bet you did. and the person you ignored, was me. well, you think you matter that much to me? i would say, no. haha. i think..you suck! sorry, but i'm not being rude or what, i'm just being straightforward. is this familiar to you? hey, stop and look around. feel for others too because this world does not only comprise of you alone. not only you will emo, i will too. but it seems you always does it. and i'll have to tolerate your almost everyday emo kind of thing. eccentric. is this too nice for you? then crazy will do.
i'm a person who sees friendship as one of the most important thing in life. not money, not love although they both do play an important part. family comes first, followed by friends and studies together. i hate the feeling of being betrayed. you're a liar. you forgot about the promise you made didnt you. why? why do you say it when in the first place, you dont mean it. i didnt force you to say it. i even told you not to promise me. but you insisted. now, you forgot. ha. i'm so dumb and gullible. why did i believe you in the first place? i'm so dumb aint i? you're such a friend indeed. you treat me like some toys? you need me you hang out with me. when you dont need me you tell me you hang out lesser with me. well..dont say you'll hang out lesser with me. i dont want to hang out with you at all you hypocrite. the stupid letter you wrote made me like that. i was neutral with you..but now. i dont know what to say about the friendship between me and you. you spoilt it.
but amidst all these nonsense happening in my life, i found a very very nice friend again. i drifted away from her..but i'm thankful for her. thank you very much(: